Somewhere over the rainbow, blue birds fly. Birds fly over the rainbow, why then, oh why can't I?

Jeez.

I am a terrible blog-person ;)

But anyway.

So, I'm in England again. Have been since 17th of November :P
But I've been totally wrapped up in myself so I'd forgotten I even had a blog xD

Anyway. Much have happened.

I have seen The Twilight Saga; New Moon two times :P That's what happenes when I get obsessed with stuff :P

Ah well, I can't write down everything that's happened, but of course lots of stuff ;)

Don't ask about todays title btw, I just had the song on my brain :P

On tuesday I have a secret mission. I'll write about it on thursday though (If I can remember I have a blog :P)

I am currently reading the book Looking for Alaska by John Green. It's totally awesome!

Well, I'm gonna go now. But just listen to this! It's so goddamn beautiful it makes me want to cry!!!



Sovereign Light Café <3

I'm trying to make a move just to stay in the game, I try to stay awake and remember my name

Time goes by so fast!!!!

Friday is my dad's funeral. I find it kind of funny that it's Friday 13th, especially since my dad was supersticious ;)

I am occupied with three things these days.
Firstly, I try to see as many of my friends as possible before returning to England the 17th.
Secondly, I am rereading some of the books in The Twilight Saga. I finished New Moon the other day, and now I'm reading Eclipse. I haven't decided yet if I'll read Breaking Dawn afterwards or not...
Thirdly, I am writing a novel. Or well... There's this thing called NaNoWriMo and the thing is that you should write a story with 50,000 words or more during the month of November. You start the 1st (okay, I started the 5th but I don't think tht matters), and you have to be finished at midnight the 30th. Everybody who finishes are winners!!!

Now, this is not a good thing for me ;)
I stay up all night trying to write. So I am extremely tired. I am also uneasy when I do something apart from writing, because I need to write more :P
And I know that I probbly won't finish anyway, 'cause this is just such a thing I am bound to get tired with after a couple of days. And then I'll feel bad with myself.

But at least I am having fun now :P My story is a quite good one!

Btw, I watched a bit of Monty Python just now, and ooooh I love it <3 Just wanted to randomly tell you that :D

I try so hard to tell myself that you're gone.

Hiya. It's been a while.

I am back in Sweden.

My dad died yesterday morning, the morning of my sisters 15th birthday. I came home yesterday night. I booked the flight the 26th and hoped that I would reach him in time.

But I said my final goodbye to him today at the hospital. It was so relieveing to see his peaceful face. He's been in so much pain lately, and it's been breaking us all down. He's in peace now, he can't feel the pain anymore.

I will miss him everyday of my life.

I love you dad. Rest in Peace.
4/8-46 - 27/10-09

Stuff.

List of what I am going to buy as soon as I get my Pocket Money (which should be any day now!);

1. Fringe Season 1 DVD box - The best series I've seen in a very long time, and I missed so many episodes when Fringe came back after a break that I decided to wait until the box came out instead of watching it and don't get it. And now it's being sold here in England <3

2. Into The Wild - One of my favourite films ever <3 And I don't have it. It's just sooo inspiring and horrible at the same time.

3. Second Hand Clothes - Found this nice 2nd Hand Shop and I really want some stuff they're selling

(4. Noah and the Whale, Peaceful The World Lays Me Down - Their first album. I don't have it, but I'm not sure I am going to buy it this month :P)

And most certainly loooads of other stuff that I don't need. I am quite tempted to getthe DVD boxes of Dexter season 1&2 :D and lots and lots of other DVD's ;)

Hoho, save? Never heard of it :P

Secrecy at it's best.

I am dealing with a very secret thing.
Question is how long I can keep it secret?
Moahaha >:D

It's happeeh stuff anyway :3

I came home from London today. I had a fab time, even though I didn't see Jesse Quin anywhere :P Of course they wouldn't let me in, even if I had a super plan! But oh, I love London and it was an amazing day, and who cares if I didn't meet Jesse? I'll do it another time anyway so :) I can't get hung up on small things like that! I am a lucky person, and I am very happy! HIPPIE POWER :D

Anyway. Would upload loads of pictures, but I don't have the patience. But these few will tell you what I did anyway :)















I really want to tell the secret now :3 But I shan't ;)

<3

London Calling!

Woho! I'm in london having the time of my life! Haha meeting nice
people everywhere and doesn't want to leave in the morning. Have just
been to Hope and Anchor (outside it anyway), the bar where keane
played their first ever gig! And I have also been to king's cross!
Anyway, I love london.

Or to take arms against a sea of troubles, and by opposing end them?

Was there ever such a great poet as William Shakespeare? I think not!

His words have captured my heart and the very core of my being screams for more.

Oh yes, I have just seen Hamlet, and by God it is magnificent beyond belief!

Four hours long and yet I could waste four hours more.

I love it. I love Shakespeake.

(And I love writing like this xD hahaha)

HAMLET <3



Act III, scene I

To be, or not to be: that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,
And by opposing end them? To die: to sleep;
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to, 'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wish'd. To die, to sleep;
To sleep: perchance to dream: ay, there's the rub;
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come
When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
Must give us pause: there's the respect
That makes calamity of so long life;
For who would bear the whips and scorns of time,
The oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely,
The pangs of dispriz'd love, the law's delay,
The insolence of office and the spurns
That patient merit of the unworthy takes,
When he himself might his quietus make
With a bare bodkin? Who would these fardels bear,
To grunt and sweat under a weary life,
But that the dread of something after death,
The undiscover'd country from whose bourn
No traveller returns, puzzles the will
And makes us rather bear those ills we have
Than fly to others that we know not of?
Thus conscience does make cowards of us all;
And thus the native hue of resolution
Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought,
And enterprises of great pith and moment
With this regard their currents turn away,
And lose the name of action.

P.s. I know this by heart which is, I think, very nerdy :P D.s.

I'm still here...

Woah, there's so much going on at the moment that I've completely forgotten to write.

On Saturday I'm going to London. On Sunday, I am going to try and sneak into gig with one of my all time favourite bands Jesse Quin and the Mets. The thing is, you have to be 18+ to get in. I am only 17. But it's worth a try, and if they don't let me in, I can sit outside the door and try and hear something :P And I'll still have an amazing day in London :) Going back home on monday morning. Reality calling :P

And on Wednesday I am going to see one of my other favourite bands Noah and the Whale, which is going to be awesome :) I can't wait!!!

And as you know, my absolute favourite band is Keane. The only band that might be able to even come near them is Kent. A Swedish band I've loved since I was 12/13 (can't remember exactly WHEN I started listening to them), and they've been there through all my crisis in life, the ggod times and the bad. Their lyrics are magnificent and heartbreaking and ahh. I just love them so much.
And the reason I wrote this is because THEIR NEW ALBUM IS RELEASED ON THE 6TH OF NOVEMBER!!! I'VE WAITED AND WAITED ANd WAITED!
What sucks though, is that I won't be able to see them play live. It's the 25th/26th of February, and I have to be here then :/ I really want to!!!

Anyway. That's all the band new. I do have some stuff happening in my life as well. Though now I'm too tired to write it down 'cause it's late.

Byebyebye :3

Maybe it's time to go?

I feel like banging my head against the floor until my head cracks and I can't think anymore. That would be nice.

Oh and by the way, my dad might die tonight.

He's at the hospital trying to survive. The doctors have already pointed out that since it's so bad, they won't do anything if his heart stops beating.

They'll let him go.


My entire family have been there today, some of them will sleep by his side. And here I am stuck, not able to do anything. Not even able to talk to him since he's asleep.

The last time I talked to him was several days ago.

Other than that, I am pretty fucking great!

Can somebody please hit me in the head now? I want to sleep until it's all over. Until everything is over!

Catching up :D

There's much going on in my life...

This friday I donated blood for the first time in my life. Something I've wanted to do for a very long time, but you have to be 17 so it haven't been possible.
There are two reason I've wanted this for quite some time. Firstly and the most obvious maybe, I like the thought of saving lives. That people can live just because I have a needle in my arm for 5 mins and then get something to eat and I'm finished, hardly noticing what I'd just done. It's so simple, and yet almost no one does it!
The second reason is because of my dad. He's dying in cancer, and quite often get blood-transfusions. Without it, he would probably be dead now. And when you yourself get affected by the possitiveness of blood donations, it's almost impossible not wanting to be a help to other people in your situation.


But, on to more happy stuff!

I was in London this Sunday, and met my oldest friend Malisa (aka Balle). We've known each other our whole lives and we've always been together. It was hard for both of us when I moved here.
And this Sunday she came to visit.
Maybe I should mention though that I had perhaps 6 hours to be with her because I had to catch the bus back to sheffield, and we spent like 3½ hours trying to find her hotel and get back to London xD But it was nice and we got to hang out and talk :D







And I can tell you that I'm seriously considering going back this weekend just because I love that feakin' town so much, and I didn't see that much of it this time...

Sonnet to those who fight

Woho, the poet in me have created something new ;)
The second Sonnet I've ever written, and the first one I wrote with a friend...
So this might be crap...

Anyway, here's Sonnet to those who fight;

I wished so long for my days to start
To find the one that would be my light
And when I found you, I knew it was right
I knew it deep inside my heart

We had to make sure that it wouldn’t fall apart
Day by day by day we had to fight
Because keeping love burning is an art
Oh and we struggled with all our might

But then you were gone my friend
The time took you, and maybe time will mend
The jokes we shared and the laughter I miss

Maybe some day, I will be able to see
Those memories are good, and free
And I’ll remember with a smile, our first kiss

Hello, Hello, there is no place I can not go.

Sitting in my room, doing nothing.

It's a lovely day outside so I might go out for a walk. But firstly I have to make something to eat.

I want to write something nice on here, but my head is totally empty :S
Haha, I think I'm going crazy sometimes.

By the way, do you know how beautiful Tim Rice-Oxley is? It's unbelievable! Ah, Tim <3

Hihi, I read a thing I'd written in March saying "I wish I could meet Tim sometime. That would be ultimate happiness", and oh I met him i June and yes, it was Ultimate Happiness :D Sometimes dreams can come true :')



Anyway :D I think I'll go for that walk now! Or wait, breakfast first!

Peace!

Pizza hut

Trying to figure out how to post on the blog via my phone. I'm at
pizza hut at the moment, and they're playing lots of awesome songs on
the radio. I'm so full that I have no idea how i'm going to be able to
get out of here. I can hardly move. Haha, hopefully i'll be able to
post this now. England's still wonderful. I start an arts-course at
collage the 23rd and I look forward to it so much. Okay, gotta go. See
ya :-)

How many roads must a man walk down, before you can call him a man?

My God it's been a long time since I wrote here. A bit embarassing when you think of the fact that I've had internet on my laptop for more than a week now.

I've just been either exhausted or haven't had the time. And when I have the time to sit down by the computer, I have to answer all the emails I get, and check out stuff, and then the time's up. And at nights, I am just so tired that I fall asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow.

But it's fun. I love it here, so I'm not complaining. England is fabulous!

I'm listening at Jesse Quin and the Mets while writing this, and they are so awesome it's unbelievable! And speaking of them, I wonder what they're up to... Their website is filled with questionmarks, Jesse has removed his blog, and Ithink their myspace is fucked up as well! And theyhave weird (but lovely videos) on their facebook. They are very clearly up to something! I hope something exciting :D

I have one friend here in Sheffield so far. Her name's Barbara and she's lovely! We're having so much fun. Went shopping with her yesterday, which ended up with me getting a new pair of jeans, a new shirt and the new 'Noah and the Whale'-CD.
Oh yeah, I am currently in love with NATW!!! They are simply amazing!

Hmm, what more. Oh yeah, I have used up about £300 on stuff already. Most off it on eBay stuff, but also clothes and other stuff I don't need. Although I absolutley love all the stuff I got from eBay. Cool Keane-stuff and a polariod camera and film! Do you have any idea how long I've wanted a polaroid camera? I am sooo happy :)

Oh well, I think that's it. Soon, I have to tidy my room, do the dishes, take care of the laundry and do the ironing... And then I'm picking Naomi up to go swimming.

I love England. I really do!

Jikes!

I haven't updated in ages.

I have a good reason for this though.

I am now in England as an Au Pair. I arrived Friday the 14th. And I've been so so so busy playing with the children and getting to know the town of Sheffiled, that I\ve been exhausted at night, when I could have sit by the computer.
And I don't have internet on my laptop yet.

But I am really really enjoying it here. The children are really really sweet.

Now, I just have to figure out what to give them for tea (dinner)... Not an easy task!

Well, I'll update as soon as I can ;)

HAPPINESS ATTACK!

Berlin is AWESOME!!!!

Me and Christa's been running around Berlin like maniacs in Berlin for two days, and I am loving every second of it :D



I'm gonna go to bed now, but hopefully I can write a proper and good blog entry soon ;)

Ì'm quite sad that I have to leave tomorrow (though I leave in 9PM), because I'm havig such a lovely time here with Christa and her dad! Christa's lovely in every single way :D

Okay, so I'm off to bed now!

Night <3

Happy birthday dad!

So, today's my dad's 63rd birthday :D

My sis' and her kids are coming here to celebrate, and then I am leaving for the summerhouse :D

And then, the 7th, I'll go to Berlin, and meet my dear friend Christa, which I've never met IRL before, and which will be totally Awesome :D<3

So I am quite excited!!!!

And I'll stay in Berlin until the 9th, and I'll leave quite late :)

and then the 14th, I'll move to England!!!!!
It's only 10 days left!!!

Hoho, creepy ;) ahhh, august's weird!

byebye, donnu when I'll write next time :)

Pure Awesomeness #3

Andrew Lloyd Webber ladies and gentlemen!



I have loved Andrew since I was 13, and discovered "The Phantom of the Opera"!
He is such a genious, I absolutley adore him!

I know people think he's a bit weird and after, but oh, such a brilliant mind!

"The Phantom" is still my absolute favourite musical ever, though I am very much in love with "Jesus Christ Superstar" and "Evita" also. "Cats" is amazing as well! And I am currently obsessed with the "Joseph and the Amazing Technicolour Dreamcoat" music.

And everything else he's done is brilliant as well!

I love you Andrew <3

Look out for Pure Awesomeness #4 ;)

Lookbook!

Guess what?

I am now a member of Lookbook.

Which I NEVER thought I'd be, and nobody a year ago would have thought possible.

But that site is just INCREDIBLY inspiring, and I just wanna be as cool as the people on the page. Who knows, maybe I'll like fashion more than I could've believed?

anyway.
http://lookbook.nu/angelic

If you wanted to know ;)

Ugh.

Woah!

I'm seventeen, and nothing feels different ;P

Spending time with two of my best friends ever, made me both incredibly happy, but also sad. It's INSANE how much I'll miss them :o

And my other friends too. Pernilla told me she cried for half an hour when I told her, which made me cry as well. And ughhhh.

And Rose-Ann comes home from the Philippines the 8th, and I come home from Berlin late the 9th. Which means I'll meet her the 10th, and then I'll move in 4 DAYS!!!!!!!!

It's only two weeks left now!

Don't get me wrong, I'm still SO DAMN MEGA INCREDIBLE EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But I'll still miss my friends a lot, and there's no point denying it :o

I love you guys so much <3