I try so hard to tell myself that you're gone.

Hiya. It's been a while.

I am back in Sweden.

My dad died yesterday morning, the morning of my sisters 15th birthday. I came home yesterday night. I booked the flight the 26th and hoped that I would reach him in time.

But I said my final goodbye to him today at the hospital. It was so relieveing to see his peaceful face. He's been in so much pain lately, and it's been breaking us all down. He's in peace now, he can't feel the pain anymore.

I will miss him everyday of my life.

I love you dad. Rest in Peace.
4/8-46 - 27/10-09

Stuff.

List of what I am going to buy as soon as I get my Pocket Money (which should be any day now!);

1. Fringe Season 1 DVD box - The best series I've seen in a very long time, and I missed so many episodes when Fringe came back after a break that I decided to wait until the box came out instead of watching it and don't get it. And now it's being sold here in England <3

2. Into The Wild - One of my favourite films ever <3 And I don't have it. It's just sooo inspiring and horrible at the same time.

3. Second Hand Clothes - Found this nice 2nd Hand Shop and I really want some stuff they're selling

(4. Noah and the Whale, Peaceful The World Lays Me Down - Their first album. I don't have it, but I'm not sure I am going to buy it this month :P)

And most certainly loooads of other stuff that I don't need. I am quite tempted to getthe DVD boxes of Dexter season 1&2 :D and lots and lots of other DVD's ;)

Hoho, save? Never heard of it :P

Secrecy at it's best.

I am dealing with a very secret thing.
Question is how long I can keep it secret?
Moahaha >:D

It's happeeh stuff anyway :3

I came home from London today. I had a fab time, even though I didn't see Jesse Quin anywhere :P Of course they wouldn't let me in, even if I had a super plan! But oh, I love London and it was an amazing day, and who cares if I didn't meet Jesse? I'll do it another time anyway so :) I can't get hung up on small things like that! I am a lucky person, and I am very happy! HIPPIE POWER :D

Anyway. Would upload loads of pictures, but I don't have the patience. But these few will tell you what I did anyway :)















I really want to tell the secret now :3 But I shan't ;)

<3

London Calling!

Woho! I'm in london having the time of my life! Haha meeting nice
people everywhere and doesn't want to leave in the morning. Have just
been to Hope and Anchor (outside it anyway), the bar where keane
played their first ever gig! And I have also been to king's cross!
Anyway, I love london.

Or to take arms against a sea of troubles, and by opposing end them?

Was there ever such a great poet as William Shakespeare? I think not!

His words have captured my heart and the very core of my being screams for more.

Oh yes, I have just seen Hamlet, and by God it is magnificent beyond belief!

Four hours long and yet I could waste four hours more.

I love it. I love Shakespeake.

(And I love writing like this xD hahaha)

HAMLET <3



Act III, scene I

To be, or not to be: that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,
And by opposing end them? To die: to sleep;
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to, 'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wish'd. To die, to sleep;
To sleep: perchance to dream: ay, there's the rub;
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come
When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
Must give us pause: there's the respect
That makes calamity of so long life;
For who would bear the whips and scorns of time,
The oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely,
The pangs of dispriz'd love, the law's delay,
The insolence of office and the spurns
That patient merit of the unworthy takes,
When he himself might his quietus make
With a bare bodkin? Who would these fardels bear,
To grunt and sweat under a weary life,
But that the dread of something after death,
The undiscover'd country from whose bourn
No traveller returns, puzzles the will
And makes us rather bear those ills we have
Than fly to others that we know not of?
Thus conscience does make cowards of us all;
And thus the native hue of resolution
Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought,
And enterprises of great pith and moment
With this regard their currents turn away,
And lose the name of action.

P.s. I know this by heart which is, I think, very nerdy :P D.s.

I'm still here...

Woah, there's so much going on at the moment that I've completely forgotten to write.

On Saturday I'm going to London. On Sunday, I am going to try and sneak into gig with one of my all time favourite bands Jesse Quin and the Mets. The thing is, you have to be 18+ to get in. I am only 17. But it's worth a try, and if they don't let me in, I can sit outside the door and try and hear something :P And I'll still have an amazing day in London :) Going back home on monday morning. Reality calling :P

And on Wednesday I am going to see one of my other favourite bands Noah and the Whale, which is going to be awesome :) I can't wait!!!

And as you know, my absolute favourite band is Keane. The only band that might be able to even come near them is Kent. A Swedish band I've loved since I was 12/13 (can't remember exactly WHEN I started listening to them), and they've been there through all my crisis in life, the ggod times and the bad. Their lyrics are magnificent and heartbreaking and ahh. I just love them so much.
And the reason I wrote this is because THEIR NEW ALBUM IS RELEASED ON THE 6TH OF NOVEMBER!!! I'VE WAITED AND WAITED ANd WAITED!
What sucks though, is that I won't be able to see them play live. It's the 25th/26th of February, and I have to be here then :/ I really want to!!!

Anyway. That's all the band new. I do have some stuff happening in my life as well. Though now I'm too tired to write it down 'cause it's late.

Byebyebye :3