Maybe it's time to go?

I feel like banging my head against the floor until my head cracks and I can't think anymore. That would be nice.

Oh and by the way, my dad might die tonight.

He's at the hospital trying to survive. The doctors have already pointed out that since it's so bad, they won't do anything if his heart stops beating.

They'll let him go.


My entire family have been there today, some of them will sleep by his side. And here I am stuck, not able to do anything. Not even able to talk to him since he's asleep.

The last time I talked to him was several days ago.

Other than that, I am pretty fucking great!

Can somebody please hit me in the head now? I want to sleep until it's all over. Until everything is over!

Catching up :D

There's much going on in my life...

This friday I donated blood for the first time in my life. Something I've wanted to do for a very long time, but you have to be 17 so it haven't been possible.
There are two reason I've wanted this for quite some time. Firstly and the most obvious maybe, I like the thought of saving lives. That people can live just because I have a needle in my arm for 5 mins and then get something to eat and I'm finished, hardly noticing what I'd just done. It's so simple, and yet almost no one does it!
The second reason is because of my dad. He's dying in cancer, and quite often get blood-transfusions. Without it, he would probably be dead now. And when you yourself get affected by the possitiveness of blood donations, it's almost impossible not wanting to be a help to other people in your situation.


But, on to more happy stuff!

I was in London this Sunday, and met my oldest friend Malisa (aka Balle). We've known each other our whole lives and we've always been together. It was hard for both of us when I moved here.
And this Sunday she came to visit.
Maybe I should mention though that I had perhaps 6 hours to be with her because I had to catch the bus back to sheffield, and we spent like 3½ hours trying to find her hotel and get back to London xD But it was nice and we got to hang out and talk :D







And I can tell you that I'm seriously considering going back this weekend just because I love that feakin' town so much, and I didn't see that much of it this time...

Sonnet to those who fight

Woho, the poet in me have created something new ;)
The second Sonnet I've ever written, and the first one I wrote with a friend...
So this might be crap...

Anyway, here's Sonnet to those who fight;

I wished so long for my days to start
To find the one that would be my light
And when I found you, I knew it was right
I knew it deep inside my heart

We had to make sure that it wouldn’t fall apart
Day by day by day we had to fight
Because keeping love burning is an art
Oh and we struggled with all our might

But then you were gone my friend
The time took you, and maybe time will mend
The jokes we shared and the laughter I miss

Maybe some day, I will be able to see
Those memories are good, and free
And I’ll remember with a smile, our first kiss

Hello, Hello, there is no place I can not go.

Sitting in my room, doing nothing.

It's a lovely day outside so I might go out for a walk. But firstly I have to make something to eat.

I want to write something nice on here, but my head is totally empty :S
Haha, I think I'm going crazy sometimes.

By the way, do you know how beautiful Tim Rice-Oxley is? It's unbelievable! Ah, Tim <3

Hihi, I read a thing I'd written in March saying "I wish I could meet Tim sometime. That would be ultimate happiness", and oh I met him i June and yes, it was Ultimate Happiness :D Sometimes dreams can come true :')



Anyway :D I think I'll go for that walk now! Or wait, breakfast first!

Peace!

Pizza hut

Trying to figure out how to post on the blog via my phone. I'm at
pizza hut at the moment, and they're playing lots of awesome songs on
the radio. I'm so full that I have no idea how i'm going to be able to
get out of here. I can hardly move. Haha, hopefully i'll be able to
post this now. England's still wonderful. I start an arts-course at
collage the 23rd and I look forward to it so much. Okay, gotta go. See
ya :-)

How many roads must a man walk down, before you can call him a man?

My God it's been a long time since I wrote here. A bit embarassing when you think of the fact that I've had internet on my laptop for more than a week now.

I've just been either exhausted or haven't had the time. And when I have the time to sit down by the computer, I have to answer all the emails I get, and check out stuff, and then the time's up. And at nights, I am just so tired that I fall asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow.

But it's fun. I love it here, so I'm not complaining. England is fabulous!

I'm listening at Jesse Quin and the Mets while writing this, and they are so awesome it's unbelievable! And speaking of them, I wonder what they're up to... Their website is filled with questionmarks, Jesse has removed his blog, and Ithink their myspace is fucked up as well! And theyhave weird (but lovely videos) on their facebook. They are very clearly up to something! I hope something exciting :D

I have one friend here in Sheffield so far. Her name's Barbara and she's lovely! We're having so much fun. Went shopping with her yesterday, which ended up with me getting a new pair of jeans, a new shirt and the new 'Noah and the Whale'-CD.
Oh yeah, I am currently in love with NATW!!! They are simply amazing!

Hmm, what more. Oh yeah, I have used up about £300 on stuff already. Most off it on eBay stuff, but also clothes and other stuff I don't need. Although I absolutley love all the stuff I got from eBay. Cool Keane-stuff and a polariod camera and film! Do you have any idea how long I've wanted a polaroid camera? I am sooo happy :)

Oh well, I think that's it. Soon, I have to tidy my room, do the dishes, take care of the laundry and do the ironing... And then I'm picking Naomi up to go swimming.

I love England. I really do!